Happy New Year 2009!

Last Year

*I’m damn cheap like that using trial version so you can see the trial version message on top haha wtf

Last year’s countdown is in a pub near Pier 39 and then spent the night playing Guitar Hero with 2 person I absolutely loved. It was  extremely fun despite the fact that I was damn polite and quiet that night la if you know me, that’s the last thing you would imagine happening to someone crazy like me. NOrmally I would be very adventurous and will run around discovering the new place and keep ordering liquor and dance the whole night away and end up puking whole night wtf. Kevin was a pussy that day cause he refused to drink anything! GAY! I had to practically force him to drink coz WE’RE COUNTING DOWN A NEW YEAR AT SAN FRANCISCO FOR GOD’S SAKE DRINK LA WTF

#1 2007: Me being very healthy going all red lobster after drinking a bit wtf. The drink damn nice la shit I forgot what drink is it I think Vodka something Vodka rainbow? haih I’m supposed to remember it so I can order it everywhere I go coz damn nice wey trust me very sweet

#2 2007: Hello! We’re taking photos to send to Shu through MMS at that time eheh but I think she didn’t get it. I heard there’s some kind of pill where you take and it will decrease the redness when you take liquor hmph let me find out and try the pill out.

This Year

This year I’m not in that pub in Pier 39 even though I could.

But that doesn’t mean I’m not enjoying everything around me because all is fine. I’ve talked to a lot of people through MSN this couple of days. I don’t know whats up with end of the year that makes people more reflective about their life. In general most of them have been nothing but gloomy and miserable and have been complaining about 2008 and how the year has been really disastrous for them.

Let me be frank with you.

I’ve never been so impatient, never been so eager to start the new year. I have been waiting wishfully. Initially I’ve written an extremely long wordy piece of entry titled “What happened in 2008.”. I end up deleting the entry because I think it’s totally pointless to look back at the past and dwell on unhappiness or thinking about why this happened and why that happened or finding every sort of excuse for everything that did NOT happen.

Instead, I have a long list of things that I need to do and want to accomplish in 2009. And for the first time, I’m looking forward to everything. I wanted to start doing them right away and eager to taste the sense of triumph. There’s really so much I have to do on my own and I’ve never been so positive and optimistic in my life. So much have happened in 2008 and have changed in the last few months of 2008, changing me into a person I never thought I would become, accepting a lot of things I never thought I would accept, forgiving everything I never thought I would forgive. I learnt to put everything down, to remember and love everything that had happened. I’m sure in every unfortunate thing that happened, there’s something worthy of love and remembrance. Isn’t that so?

My advise to everyone, don’t look back, forget things that did not go well and smile. Don’t remember all the things that did not happen and be sad.

SO HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009 EVERYONE!<3 MAY THE NEW YEAR BRING YOU LOTS AND LOTS OF LUCK <3

*throws party confetti in the air*

Long Winded Very Personal Post

After so many wordless posts, today I feel like giving u a full long wordy entry. I have so much to say. If you’re not up for it then you can close your browser and go away now wtf. But if you didn’t read this you’d regret it trust me wtf.

DID I TELL YOU I’M GOING TO SEE SUGAH CANDY IN LESS THAN72 HOURS WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~***~~

Okay anyway I’m just done with a major spring cleaning and I’m exhausted. The skin on my hand is starting to peel because the detergent is so strong and I couldn’t find any gloves so what the heck. The last time I actually cleaned and scrubbed a whole house is already back in February when my friend came to stay over. Truth is, I’m a really clean person. My room and bathroom are always spotless so all I have to clean is the living room and the kitchen. My sister is another clean freak. She couldn’t even stand a little bit of hair lying around haih wtf and she irons her clothes every morning before she leaves the house. Me? I just put my crumpled dress on the bed and keep flattening it with my bare hands WTF Or if the dress is really really really wrinkled then i’d wear it on and then pull the end of the skirt up on the ironing board and just iron the hemline because with a straight hemline it’ll give an impression that the dress is ironed =D trust me it really works.

Oops. where was I.

Yah spring cleaning. So my other friend is coming to stay over my place now and the least I could do is to make sure the place is clean.

Someone told me I’m a very hard to please girl. Well, not only someone, is actually quite a handful of people who told me that. Really? Seriously? You really think I’m so hard to please?  If you give me 1 dollar worth of keropok lekor then you’re my best friend already wtf. I guess people said that because I’m sort of materialistic. Like if you give me expensive stuff than I’d be very happy wtf.  If you throw me a Chanel bag i’d hug you. haha vain wtf.

All this while I thought I’m a very smart person. Straight A student. Apparently not. This year I went through a couple of papers. And they suck to the max. Is it because I got out of school too long time ago hence my brain literally stopped working or I’m jusst not as smart as I think I am? To start with, I didn’t think my English is THAT bad. Like seriously. But I proved myself wrong. My infamous “today morning” haih. If you can’t tell what’s wrong with that, then your English is probably as bad as mine because the correct one should be “This Morning”. When I first said it, my sister laughed at me. Even after she laughed at me, I still didn’t know what’s wrong. In my defense, she’s always bullying me for nothing anyway. I guess I have to blame it on my English teacher Mr Quek haih wtf must be he taught me something wrong lah!

And can you tell that I’m the queen of procrastination? I actually have a lot of assignments to do but I haven’t started on anything my god seriously can someone please just give me one big slap so I’d go back to work and get everything done so I can have a peaceful Christmas?

Speaking of Christmas, the other day I went window shopping and nearly lugged home a 60 inch huge Christmas Tree. You know. like the real BIG HUGE ASS Christmas Tree that I can decorate with all sorts of bells and lights and an angel on the top of the tree so I could check under the tree every morning after I wake up for surprise Christmas presents that the Santa Clause drop off for me from the chimney. But then luckily sanity get the better of me and after thinking that I’d probably have to spend few hundred dollars on an useless tree. I walked away. Phew…

You know the amount of people around me who recently broke up? Sometimes it really pains me to see them suffering and abusing themselves. Sigh. We fight we break up we kiss we make up WTF. I’ve talked to them up to a point where I started to talk in a harsh manner more like scolding wtf because if scolding them would make them wake up and face the truth then I’d do that even if it means they’d hate me you know what I mean. When people are sad they just don’t care, they want you to be sad with them and when you scold them, they go all “aiya why u like that so inconsiderate. put yourselves in my shoes and u won’t say this” okay this? Put myself in your shoes? I have my own shoes okay. You think I’ve never gone through all of that like seriously? Have you any idea what I used to have to put up with up until the point that I get blocked from all possible communication routes and then dumped? So trust me when I say I know how it feels.

But out of the million things that you can admire me on..WTF, this is one of it, that I get out of relationship very steadily. When the first time it happens, I felt like it’s the end of the world. I couldn’t eat for almost a month, surviving on cookies and Milo that my friend make for me. Jes would remember what a useless piece of shit I was. I couldn’t remember how I got out of it. The next few time it happens, I’m okay. I didn’t know if i got used to it or something but I guess I just lost hope in people in general so I have no expectation whatsoever hence no disappointment. The last time it happened, I cried for 5 hours straight. Grace would remember that heh. Then I’m up and okay again the next day. I guess I learn to look at the bright side of things esp on a relationship. I wanted to live better after a relationship, be it for myself or for the lost significant other. I will never ever again be the girl who begs to get back together like how I did the first time. I realized that when things SHOULD happen, they WILL happen. So please, live better okay?

The other day I was chatting with Hwa on compromising. We were talking about having someone who love you more than you love him is better . Because then I wouldn’t have to spend every minute trying to please him.  I hate it when that happens. I channel all my energy pleasing that someone and then end up being someone even I myself hate. Like I would buy like 10 birthday presents for the person until I finally decided the best present to actually send out, and then threw the other 9 away. Isn’t that pathetic to start with? Or you think I’m so romantic so attentive?

Next week is Kek’s wedding. I’m so excited because I haven’t seen the girls in AGES like seriously AGES like don’t know how many YEARS okay. I didn’t have a chance to because every CNY they gathered on the 2nd day but that’s the day that I’m supposed to go over to my grandma’s so that’s why I always miss out haih I haven’t really gotten a white dress yet because Kek wanted everyone to wear white as the bridesmaid. I digged out all my dresses apparently I have sky blue dark blue black purple yellow lime green duck shit green also got wtf EXCEPT white. Okay actually I found 1 white one maybe I’ll wear just that.

Next week is also my birthday *ehem* =D Can you believe how fast the year flew by. Only last year I’m in Santa Clara and celebrated my birthday alone in Applebee’s in a 6 person table haih wtf I don’t know why the waitress put me ALONE sitting in a 6 person table and everywhere around me, people are all seated in gangs WTF I felt so left out and lonely but I didn’t care because it’s MY birthday and I ordered Oreo blended, Babyback Ribs and Mushroom soup. The waitress asked me if I’m sure with my order because they’re kind of huge and I answered sombongly No Problem I can Finish it but end up I left 3 quarter of my babybackribs and untouched mushroom soup on the table but I fninished my Oreo blended YUMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. haih. I didn’t tell them it’s my birthday just in case they bring me a slice of cake and sing me birthday song when I’m sitting ALONE in a 6 PERSON table with the whole restaurant staring at me WTF can u imagine that??! On the real US birthday day (wtf I celebrated once Msian time and once US time wtf so kiasu) I went fine dining at Alexander’s Steakhouse in Cupertino with my then significant other. Eh that’s my first fine dining in US okay don play play wtf but of course I made a fool of myself tons of times hopefully nobody realize..haha I think nobody realize lar but I’ll blog about that maybe later in another entry coz it deserves a whole entry to itself so you can laugh at me wtf because I’m such a dork WTF!!!

Seriously When I think of all the stupid things I did that day in Alexander’s I’m laughing to myself right now YOU CAN NEVER IMAGINE WHAT A KAMPUNG GIRL I AM YA ALLAH AHAHAHAHA MALUNYA AHAHAHA

J’Aime Paris

pick you up at 6. CASUAL WEAR pls

that’s what VSoon texted me lol why is my friend limiting what i can and cannot wear. so i went out with the lousiest t-shirt and jeans, nearly put on my pajamas. i really have to admit i’m older now that i started yawning at 12 midnight sharp even though there’s so many people walking here and there at the gurney place but they just dont interest me. all i can think of is

my green bedsheet and white goose feather duvet.

i blame it on the peppermint and rose tea. too soothing for my liking. it’s called Lady’s Hope, supposed to be for slimming and health but i think someone put sleeping pill inside

i don’t know what to write today so let me just steal a few photos from Candy.

they bought cupcakes from Cupcake Royale and purposely send me the photo so i can just drool over them at home =( Clockwise from top left: Kate – pink vanilla buttercream, Triple Threat – dark belgian chocolate buttercream, Dance Party with Holly Hobbie – another pink vanilla, Lavendar, Orange U Glad – real orange in vanilla buttercream, Lemon Drop – tangy lemon frosting on sweet vanilla. *wipes off saliva from my desk. SO GOOD CAN DIE. penang can go eat shit la no cupcake anywhere so i decided to learn and do myself hohohoho

Full English Breakfast in London! baked beans, egg, sausage, hash brown, the other one don know whats that

the real London Eye. *ehem Malaysian Eye can go eat shit la. nah i’m kidding Eye on Malaysia is not THAT BAD except that it’s smaller, and was labelled copycat, and that the view from the top is not really that nice kay all the time when i was up there i kept wishing it would stop and let me down

Mannheim City, Germany. Where she’s doing her study tour now. 2nd largest city in state of Baden-Württemberg after the capital Stuttgart.

i think the BEST part about going to ANY country is to be able to find and relax at one of those breezy open aired quaint cafes. have a cuppa hot chocolate, NUTELLA crepes, pancake, dessert yummyyy

Arc de Triomphe at the end of Champs-Elysees

Rolling on the Greens. In Msia if you do that you will find yourself landing on some dog shit wtf

and this is what i ask for HOHOHOHOHOHO

okay have i convinced you to go backpack with me hmph

bonjour Paris

all this while everyone’s been talking about europe europe europe as though it’s something so unreachable and you’ll be able to afford only if you strike a 7 million lottery or something.

and Candy is now on her way to London

and then Paris

and then Germany.

unbelievable. London Eye, Big Ben, and u know what? Home of designers…..and she’s even going to watch Wimbledon!

can u imagine? we’ve been way too pro US and she’s now opening up her options to the Europe too.

the whole family is going to the US next year for her graduation, and we’ll be stopping by Europe before US so hohohohoho don’t be jealous don’t be jealous it’s going to be my turn soon. anyone want to join me or not? it’s going to be so fun to be in the real Paris instead of the fake one in Vegas la please

and this is taken by Pauline when she’s having dessert in CheeseCake Factory Macy’s Union Square SF

urm….can someone please tell me why i’m at the other side of the world?

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joan ah kor hmph

i hate being sick esp with headaches just kill me pls i was on MC on wed then thurs went to work half dead. went back home and slept from 8 at night till 8 in the morning. 12 hours straight without waking up not even my housemate’s morning toilet visits could wake me up

when people are sick they lose appetite and lose weight. when i’m sick i ate like a bull and gained back whatever pounds i lost seriously fuck this shit when i recover i’m going back on strict diet sigh never ending weight battle wtf

i hate dieting. can i stay chubby like now. would u still love me if i’m fat wtf sigh i guess not

i went to work this morning at 8 and left at 11 to pick up Patrick then spent the whole day in G Hotel with Ethan. the last time mum asked Ethan who doesn’t love Ethan he say Joan ah kor sigh now everytime i see him i force him to say Ethan loves Joan ah kor lol even if he’s not sincere i don care wtf

he could speak fairly well now and his favourite phrases are “what are you doing” and “where are we going” wtf

he’s still super active like hyperactive and kept pushing the lights to and fro so happy okay nah Candy this is for you just in case u forgot him already

then Pat scolded him and he sat behind the table. not smiling not talking look very pitiful

lol so cute can die seriously
actually i’m beyond tired now because i got home at midnight after a long day but i’m going to blog anyhow because i’m slightly free now and starting Monday i’ll be back to being busy so i want to blog as much as i can these few days wtf

but unfortunately i have nothing more to blog about now so bye bye good night wtf

okay bye bye don’t miss me

huarghhhhhh finally finished packing seriously like i only took 2 tops and 1 shorts and 1 skirt but i spent the whole hour. i don’t know where my time went wtf and my room is MESSY BEYOND WORDS all my books my magazines my this my that all on the bed. and the floor sigh..messy until don know what

sigh tonight very emo don know why. when my friend is unhappy i ll be unhappy. ROARRRRRR WHY LIKE THAT sim don’t la angry the sushi king guy damn kam lan i know wtf

by the way, i have a dislocated shoulder. T________________________T i have a slight pain on my right shoulder for a whole 2 weeks before i go to the doctor. and doc say the biggest possibility for the slight dislocation is because i sleep on my right side too often that’s why too much pressure because i sleep sideways T_______________T he ask me to try sleep on the back, he say left shoulder also ok la anything as long as not right shoulder . and i TRIED seriously wtf i TRIED but whole night i couldn’t sleep until 3 am like that i turn to the side on my right shoulder and i fell asleep instantly T________________T why am i like that!

hurhurhur how to fix sleeping pattern. i cannot help it. it’s habit sigh

CAN YOU TELL I’M VERY BERRY BORED? HOHOHOHO WTF when you’re bored you take sohai photos hohohoh wtf

ok give you one sane photo to compensate

OKAY BYE BYE PLEASE DO REMEMBER TO MISS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

KooZA

if you haven’t heard of Cirque Du Soleil, then where have you been? living in the cave all this while wtf

i think i first got to know Cirque way before when i watch CSI because one of the episodes were showing the crime scene in Cirque lol wtf

and then when i go to Vegas there’re so many advertisements around every hotels, KA at MGM Grand, ‘O’ at Bellagio, Mystere at Treasure Island, Zumanity at NewYork NewYork. these are the only shows that i know.

i kept requesting for the guys to go for KA when we were in Vegas but they weren’t very enthusiastic about the idea either because they haven’t heard of Cirque or they think it’s too expensive wtf and i was SO DISAPPOINTED

so when i was invited to the Kooza show in SF, i was thrilled, excited, euphoric, exuberant, excited. did i say excited already wtf i was beaming from ear to ear and it’s dream come true better than sex what do you know wtf

“KOOZA tells the story of The Innocent, a melancholy loner in search of his place in the world. KOOZA is a return to the origins of Cirque du Soleil: It combines two circus traditions – acrobatic performance and the art of clowning.”

our tickets!

we didn’t take any photos at all *sob sob so all the photos below are from Cirque website. trust me i was there!!!

Contortion. where 2 girls actually danced in unison and their bodies are like rubber. you wouldn’t be able to believe some of their movements wtf its like their body are not attached to their head and their hands legs are not attached to their body.

Solo Trapeze. this girl is the only member from the whole Cirque community who graduated high school.

Unicycle Duo. not very interested but they do fine. it’s all about balance baby!

Juggling. the very classic circus act, only that this one is like a gazillion times better like he can throw anything up and catch whatever shit that comes down so quick that my eyes and brain can’t catch up. and the lady beside him does nothing except coming out once in a while dancing and pass him more stuff like that keh leh feh hurhur

Highwire. 3 of them cycled from left to right then right to left with like a long bamboo stick and the 3rd guy is like balancing on top of the other 2. amazing wtf

these are the few that i remember very clearly. there’re a couple of acts more and there’re a lot of comical acts and singings and dancings.

i had my hands clasped so tightly the entire show because every act was so heart pounding! you would be so scared that they fall because some of them don’t have the safety wires tied to them like that wtf and omg the huge sigh of relief everytime an act is done successfully pheww

i forgot how long the show is but there were intervals in between which is quite long and we had to play domino.

i wanted to buy some souveniers and goodies from the store after the show but i totally forgot about it because someone kept complaining and complaining and complaining that “Wheel Of Death” is cancelled boo WOD oh WOD it’s a pity we didn’t see you because we heard you’re supposed to be the best okay and kel actually go and ask the guy why is WOD not shown and then kept sulking when the guy said “subject to change” lol why is he so cute <3

REGRETS okay boo i would have bought anything at any price because i wanted to prove to people that i was there okay since i didn’t take any photo at the site wtf so sad

i can’t wait for my next Cirque show until i finish all of them or until i go bancrupt wtf

losing ability to talk

I’m so busy it’s not even funny

i’ve not written so much word in the last 4 years since i graduated wtf i used up 2 black ink pens in 3 days WTF

okay getting ready for bed now

BTW

i was cleaning my room every nook and corner hoping to find my ring. since i was already cleaning might as well take out all the boxes and clothes and reorganize them.

and look what i found

eh i thought i threw them away wtf

joan hearts robots now

*edited: after i posted this entry i got so many replies and responses in return. and everyone commented on how ugly it is. REALLY THAT BAD AH *sob T____T why la are u guys so bad? give me a break i think it’s cute in a …well…ugly sense..i’m trying hard okay boo i’m gonna buy more robots because practise makes perfect wtf

i have no idea and no liking for figurines or robots at all. like seriously, who would wanna spend time fixing some stupid robot when i can go shopping or play mahjong right wtf wtf

but i spent my first ever 3 hours doing this Keroro Gunso for Kel and i totally have no idea how to get started and the stupid instructions are all in Japanese wtf so i had to call up Yien so he could brief me through it and borrow me his cutter

the finished product came out pretty horrible T_______T i had a hard time fixing the parts together and more so the stickers are damn horrendous okay the stupid robot is so small and the sticker is like damn mini okay how the hell am i supposed to paste them nicely on the robot T_____T wtf

but hey! it’s my first ever attempt okay what do you expect

ya u get what i mean right all the stickers are rippled WHY LA SO UGLY AHAHAHA can you see the eyes for the mini keroro so funny okay i cannot get them to be flat okay T______________T

left side view with gun

right side view

back view

i don’t know why the robot CANNOT STAND FIRM it’s like so unstable and if you move the leg a bit it will fall okay wtf T______T and it takes too much effort to take out everything and re-assemble so i guess i just have to live with it and accept that i’m not talented

AND YOU KNOW WHAT

someone doesn’t like it okay T__________T he complained so much about how sucks it is and that i should have done this and done that and that i am skill-less wtf and that he could do better and that i should not have done it and should have left it for him to do

boo. waste my time only

but somehow i got so addicted to assemble robots that i sort of bought a few more so i could spend time duh what a geek i’m turning into