After so many wordless posts, today I feel like giving u a full long wordy entry. I have so much to say. If you’re not up for it then you can close your browser and go away now wtf. But if you didn’t read this you’d regret it trust me wtf.
DID I TELL YOU I’M GOING TO SEE SUGAH CANDY IN LESS THAN72 HOURS WEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~~~***~~
Okay anyway I’m just done with a major spring cleaning and I’m exhausted. The skin on my hand is starting to peel because the detergent is so strong and I couldn’t find any gloves so what the heck. The last time I actually cleaned and scrubbed a whole house is already back in February when my friend came to stay over. Truth is, I’m a really clean person. My room and bathroom are always spotless so all I have to clean is the living room and the kitchen. My sister is another clean freak. She couldn’t even stand a little bit of hair lying around haih wtf and she irons her clothes every morning before she leaves the house. Me? I just put my crumpled dress on the bed and keep flattening it with my bare hands WTF Or if the dress is really really really wrinkled then i’d wear it on and then pull the end of the skirt up on the ironing board and just iron the hemline because with a straight hemline it’ll give an impression that the dress is ironed =D trust me it really works.
Oops. where was I.
Yah spring cleaning. So my other friend is coming to stay over my place now and the least I could do is to make sure the place is clean.
Someone told me I’m a very hard to please girl. Well, not only someone, is actually quite a handful of people who told me that. Really? Seriously? You really think I’m so hard to please? If you give me 1 dollar worth of keropok lekor then you’re my best friend already wtf. I guess people said that because I’m sort of materialistic. Like if you give me expensive stuff than I’d be very happy wtf. If you throw me a Chanel bag i’d hug you. haha vain wtf.
All this while I thought I’m a very smart person. Straight A student. Apparently not. This year I went through a couple of papers. And they suck to the max. Is it because I got out of school too long time ago hence my brain literally stopped working or I’m jusst not as smart as I think I am? To start with, I didn’t think my English is THAT bad. Like seriously. But I proved myself wrong. My infamous “today morning” haih. If you can’t tell what’s wrong with that, then your English is probably as bad as mine because the correct one should be “This Morning”. When I first said it, my sister laughed at me. Even after she laughed at me, I still didn’t know what’s wrong. In my defense, she’s always bullying me for nothing anyway. I guess I have to blame it on my English teacher Mr Quek haih wtf must be he taught me something wrong lah!
And can you tell that I’m the queen of procrastination? I actually have a lot of assignments to do but I haven’t started on anything my god seriously can someone please just give me one big slap so I’d go back to work and get everything done so I can have a peaceful Christmas?
Speaking of Christmas, the other day I went window shopping and nearly lugged home a 60 inch huge Christmas Tree. You know. like the real BIG HUGE ASS Christmas Tree that I can decorate with all sorts of bells and lights and an angel on the top of the tree so I could check under the tree every morning after I wake up for surprise Christmas presents that the Santa Clause drop off for me from the chimney. But then luckily sanity get the better of me and after thinking that I’d probably have to spend few hundred dollars on an useless tree. I walked away. Phew…
You know the amount of people around me who recently broke up? Sometimes it really pains me to see them suffering and abusing themselves. Sigh. We fight we break up we kiss we make up WTF. I’ve talked to them up to a point where I started to talk in a harsh manner more like scolding wtf because if scolding them would make them wake up and face the truth then I’d do that even if it means they’d hate me you know what I mean. When people are sad they just don’t care, they want you to be sad with them and when you scold them, they go all “aiya why u like that so inconsiderate. put yourselves in my shoes and u won’t say this” okay this? Put myself in your shoes? I have my own shoes okay. You think I’ve never gone through all of that like seriously? Have you any idea what I used to have to put up with up until the point that I get blocked from all possible communication routes and then dumped? So trust me when I say I know how it feels.
But out of the million things that you can admire me on..WTF, this is one of it, that I get out of relationship very steadily. When the first time it happens, I felt like it’s the end of the world. I couldn’t eat for almost a month, surviving on cookies and Milo that my friend make for me. Jes would remember what a useless piece of shit I was. I couldn’t remember how I got out of it. The next few time it happens, I’m okay. I didn’t know if i got used to it or something but I guess I just lost hope in people in general so I have no expectation whatsoever hence no disappointment. The last time it happened, I cried for 5 hours straight. Grace would remember that heh. Then I’m up and okay again the next day. I guess I learn to look at the bright side of things esp on a relationship. I wanted to live better after a relationship, be it for myself or for the lost significant other. I will never ever again be the girl who begs to get back together like how I did the first time. I realized that when things SHOULD happen, they WILL happen. So please, live better okay?
The other day I was chatting with Hwa on compromising. We were talking about having someone who love you more than you love him is better . Because then I wouldn’t have to spend every minute trying to please him. I hate it when that happens. I channel all my energy pleasing that someone and then end up being someone even I myself hate. Like I would buy like 10 birthday presents for the person until I finally decided the best present to actually send out, and then threw the other 9 away. Isn’t that pathetic to start with? Or you think I’m so romantic so attentive?
Next week is Kek’s wedding. I’m so excited because I haven’t seen the girls in AGES like seriously AGES like don’t know how many YEARS okay. I didn’t have a chance to because every CNY they gathered on the 2nd day but that’s the day that I’m supposed to go over to my grandma’s so that’s why I always miss out haih I haven’t really gotten a white dress yet because Kek wanted everyone to wear white as the bridesmaid. I digged out all my dresses apparently I have sky blue dark blue black purple yellow lime green duck shit green also got wtf EXCEPT white. Okay actually I found 1 white one maybe I’ll wear just that.
Next week is also my birthday *ehem* =D Can you believe how fast the year flew by. Only last year I’m in Santa Clara and celebrated my birthday alone in Applebee’s in a 6 person table haih wtf I don’t know why the waitress put me ALONE sitting in a 6 person table and everywhere around me, people are all seated in gangs WTF I felt so left out and lonely but I didn’t care because it’s MY birthday and I ordered Oreo blended, Babyback Ribs and Mushroom soup. The waitress asked me if I’m sure with my order because they’re kind of huge and I answered sombongly No Problem I can Finish it but end up I left 3 quarter of my babybackribs and untouched mushroom soup on the table but I fninished my Oreo blended YUMMYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. haih. I didn’t tell them it’s my birthday just in case they bring me a slice of cake and sing me birthday song when I’m sitting ALONE in a 6 PERSON table with the whole restaurant staring at me WTF can u imagine that??! On the real US birthday day (wtf I celebrated once Msian time and once US time wtf so kiasu) I went fine dining at Alexander’s Steakhouse in Cupertino with my then significant other. Eh that’s my first fine dining in US okay don play play wtf but of course I made a fool of myself tons of times hopefully nobody realize..haha I think nobody realize lar but I’ll blog about that maybe later in another entry coz it deserves a whole entry to itself so you can laugh at me wtf because I’m such a dork WTF!!!
Seriously When I think of all the stupid things I did that day in Alexander’s I’m laughing to myself right now YOU CAN NEVER IMAGINE WHAT A KAMPUNG GIRL I AM YA ALLAH AHAHAHAHA MALUNYA AHAHAHA
