Why?… Why do you love me?

nola the title was totally random coz i just watched big fat greek wedding thats why

the answer to the question in the movie is:

because i came alive when i met you

i sent Candy one of my recent photos and her response was “yer you are so ugly now that you’re thinner because u look sunken and tired and old” sigh T______________________T why is my sister like that?

then she followed with “you need to eat more so you would look nicer”

hmph……………why do i still feel fat haiya the photo is deceiving la there’re not enough lights in the toilet which is why i look sunken okay i don look sunken like that, thinner but not sunken okay!

Marriage is our last, best chance to grow up

Love is blind, but marriage restores its sights.

EeLun’s wedding was in Gurney hotel. Food was pretty good, partly because i was freaking hungry. the thing about the hired wedding singers that day is that they didn’t make the whole wedding romantic, more like a normal party. the last wedding i went to, is all about good love songs and touching stories, which was very good.

none of us brought camera surprisingly, so the only photo was taken with HY’s iphone which explains why the picture is blurrish, color went all wrong and dull, and most importantly i dont think we look like ourselves. Too bad for Vsoon cause he dressed so well with shirt and slacks and shoes and hair gel and stuff but no photo taken lol this is the wedding which i only took 5 minutes after i wake up to brush my teeth shower wash my hair dress up. and jane did my makeup but couldn’t see from the photo. her makeup was good but haiya i look like shit already originally like i only slept for 3 hours the night before

my friend invited me over to his place coz i didn’t want to be home. but then he spent the whole morning playing don know what GTA and Halo haiya say only ask me to hang out but truth is now i think i damn pro already la just because i spent a few hours watching him with his xbox. and i have to entertain myself what is this! next time don ask me to hang out okay !@##$#%

Every good act is charity

after countless encouragement, the team decided to be saints and do some charity. I’m the one who talk damn loud during meeting that we should force everyone to go since it’s for good cause right and besides i have been volunteering for some time now. like my big boss keep asking me if i’ve sinned otherwise i wouldn’t be so good sigh why is my boss like that!

but the day chosen wasn’t a good day for me i’m not feeling too “helpful” hello my grandma passed away that day give me a break i have to grieve over her death la please so please excuse me if i just sit there and do nothing

the community centre is going to do a jumbo sale. i don’t know the theme but it has something to do with “save the environment” “go green” “recycle” yah almost the same

our role that day is to help set up the tents

carry and arrange the chairs

separate and put a price to the clothes donated, this and that.

i think the photographer hates me or something. almost every photo you can see everyone working and me sitting there doing nothing

everyone busy with the chair and i was sitting at the side

everyone was busy working elsewhere and i’m sitting there talking to my big boss

everyone was busy cleaning the tupperwares for sale and i’m sitting at the side

everyone was busy working and me Kevin HuiYien chilling together

and when i finally stood up to go get water they also want to photograph to show that i didn’t take extra water for the people who’re working T__________T

and me sitting at the side watching HuiYien tie the tupperwares.

from all these 100000000000 photos you’d think that i really didn’t work but hello the truth is I DID and when i WORK, they only take 1 PHOTO FAIR OR NOT YOU SAY LA OKAY

i also helped to clean the tupperwares but why is my photo not there! hmph……..

the clothe that i was cutting into pieces is to make this

the wishing tree. i nearly go and buy some orange and hang there because i have like 1001 wishes to make

woah HuiYien and VSoon hard at work

macho guys all resting there after carrying in all the red plastic chairs from the lorry outside

HuiYien tying the very last tupperwares. when everyone else is pasting the price on the items for sale, all we did is paste prices on each other

Kevin is RM1 =)

and HuiYien is FREE AHAHAH how can anyone be cheaper than Kevin?

posing, not actually working

HuiYien Me Kevin VSoon CheongSiak MeiLing err-forgot-name PeySuan Boss

half of us that went. the other half is cropped otherwise you couldn’t see a face also la

Guys in Cherry Blossom

and lastly

ME waiting for food

no one knows what will happen in the future, so don’t be cowards

Ten years ago i got in bed with the wrong girl but she ended up being the right girl. i love you. always have and always will

yes i watched Made of Honour

we expect it to be a real funny movie like the idea is good right? getting your best guy friend to be the maid of honour.

Patrick Dempsey “McDreamy” from Grey’s Anatomy. hmph..pretty disappointing he’s just not suitable being the womanizer and he’s certainly not a joker

he’s still very McDreamy though

and Michelle Monaghan, i actually cannot remember her from any movie

but both of them look good together

the whole movie is quite disappointing. not funny is one thing. but the whole storyline is SO PREDICTABLE scene to scene i could already guess what will happen even before they show it. basically it’s just about Tom and Hannah who’re best friends, with Tom sleeping around every week, throwing away woman like used tissues and Hannah, who’d liked him since Day 1. And it’s not until one day that Hannah was on business trip that Tom realize he liked her and liked her company. But then Hannah met another guy and preparing to get married. blah blah blah ended up Tom trying to steal her back la

SEE SO PREDICTABLE RIGHT everyone can guess the ending la with Tom rushing in the church to get her back duh love conquers all.

bullshit okay no such thing in real life. love doesn’t exist in that romantic way anymore. love only exists when you’re bored and you need company to go out with for lunch dinner movie. love only exists when you need someone to make out with. haiya basically it’s like that la okay so this kind of movie can go eat shit

lol what am i talking about. okay to be honest it was pretty touching at some point. no matter how i think love doesn’t exist, but i was still touched, because i’m only human like that

Tom: if you really love someone, you let her go.

Tom’s dad: bullshit. that line’s created by a pussy and have been used by pussy since.

LOL that’s funny

OK THAT ASIDE

the guy beside me in the cinema damn irritating okay he just kept on eating and eating and i can hear him munching food in his mouth and smell his breath when he laughs. first it’s hotdog or something, then he ate twisties, then he ate double decker rota prawn crackers then this then that. and he summore hold his gf’s hand after he’s done with twisties like omg so damn dirty i seriously don’t know how his gf can stand him. if not because he smells like eternity i would have pan kao him

bonjour Paris

all this while everyone’s been talking about europe europe europe as though it’s something so unreachable and you’ll be able to afford only if you strike a 7 million lottery or something.

and Candy is now on her way to London

and then Paris

and then Germany.

unbelievable. London Eye, Big Ben, and u know what? Home of designers…..and she’s even going to watch Wimbledon!

can u imagine? we’ve been way too pro US and she’s now opening up her options to the Europe too.

the whole family is going to the US next year for her graduation, and we’ll be stopping by Europe before US so hohohohoho don’t be jealous don’t be jealous it’s going to be my turn soon. anyone want to join me or not? it’s going to be so fun to be in the real Paris instead of the fake one in Vegas la please

and this is taken by Pauline when she’s having dessert in CheeseCake Factory Macy’s Union Square SF

urm….can someone please tell me why i’m at the other side of the world?

Can you please give me your name Mr. Head, and please don’t tell me it’s Dick!

-The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy-

today i heard something about what a particular someone said that boils my wrath straight to the roof. I was so determined to stay angry and write angry posts. but after one lunch, i was ready to let it go, in fact, i already let it go during lunch itself. it’s amazing how my capacity to endure crap that people throw at me has increased all this while. *pats self on back and beaming in pride.

by the way, i just HAD to share this. it was written by Linus sent to everyone. Damn hilarious can!

Ok for those of you who read joan’s blog I just want to set the record straight — Kevin is a dork!!! I know where Chinatown and the egg tart place but Kevin is a dork. In fact this is my little blog about our last weekend and the craziness that went around it.

Linus: This is stupid. Its now 4pm and all we’ve done is eat clam clowder and walk cuz stupid Kevin parked soooooo damn far from pier 39.

Jes: Hey we got to stop at chiradelli and get the ice cream.

Linus: but we just ate.

Kevin: ya lets go, I can always eat.

Line is soooo damn long it took us an hour.

20,000 calories later …

Kevin: we got to go to the egg tart place

Linus: But we just ate.

Kevin: nevermind, we need to go. Do you know where it is?

Linus: its on Grant Ave but I don’t know the cross street.

Kevin: Let me call joan.

Linus: you’re going to call joan just to get the cross street? No need to call joan, I know where it is just give me the damn map.

Kevin: no ill text her.

Linus: shit I forgot the cross street name but lets start at geary cuz it’s the first street and well find it.

Kevin: ok I text her and she say its on grant.

Linus: dude I already told you its on grant. What cross street is it?

Kevin: Stockton

Jes: It cannot be Stockton lah, Grant and Stockton are parallel. They don’t intersect.

Laurence, Fang Ing, Linus, Jes: Kevin your stupid.

Linus: ok theres the egg tart place.

Kevin: shit theres no line, is that the right place?

Then everyone decides to just get out of the car and leave me in the car by myself. 20,000 egg tarts later.

Kevin: ok where to go next?

Linus: lets go to Mt Tam

Kevin: think we need to go get gas

Linus: no we got plenty of gas

Kevin: are u sure?

Linus: yup. No worries.

1 hr later:

Kevin: we need to go get gas

Linus: we got plenty of gas

Kevin: are you sure?

Linus: yes its still half tank

Kevin: that’s not the gas tank, that’s the engine temperature.

Linus: OH SHIT … we really need gas.

Kevin: Linus ur stupid.

LOL … so needlesstosay, its never boring hanging out with you guys. Come back again.

Happy Birthday Alpha Boy

JunnHoe’s birthday didn’t start out too good.

we all arrive at Chilli’s at around 7 i think. and the worst part is the waitress told us they couldn’t arrange a table for 8. The max is like 6 which doesn’t make sense. So we asked them why can’t they just slightly rearrange the table to make it 8 la right after arguing for 10 minutes we asked to be seated outdoor

they said well they can make 8 for outdoor. we waited while they arrange and they still ended up arranging for 6 and say there’s no more space like WTF RIGHT then we saw another section at the far end and ask to be seated there and this waitress Sharmaine say nobody is serving that section so we said why don’t you be the one to serve us and her reply was i already worked from 10 this morning. excuse me miss how can you complain to your customer that you already worked from 10 and that you’re not willing to continue serve the customers huh huh huh wtf huh?

okay grandmother story short. we managed to get 8 person table after 15 minutes of arguing sigh we swear that’s the last time we’re going to CHilli’s in Gurney

pictures pictures

this is what VSoon wore.

Tshirt Cargo shorts slippers. nothing wrong right? not until you see what HuiYien wore

white long sleeve shirt, jeans, shoes. HAHAHA can you imagine that moment when both of them see each other and they’re like are you going to be the one who should go home and change or should i HAHAHA as you can guess, we spent the entire night teasing VSoon LMAO

HuiYien starving and Pey eating already

this is the dessert that i’m DYING to order but too stingy to. white chocolate molten cake yum yum looks so good right but it’s freaking 22 bucks! well i can live without that

when we’re all busy writing bad comments on feedback cards to condemn those waitresses, one of them came over and turn off our fan. JunnHoe is starting to get really pissed and wanted to shout at someone before they came out with the cake

don’t ask me why the waitress face like that i don’t know. if she sees this she’ll find a lawyer and sue me i think

i was busy taking photos and didn’t manage to sing 1 birthday word

we bought Tiramisu!

soon to be married couple

everyone!

JunnHoe looks too young to be at that age

the guys looking a bit too serious

sorry VSoon, can’t resist posting this up to see the difference hahah

HuiYien and Alpha Boy

happy birthday JunnHoe i hope your birthday next year wouldn’t start out as bad as this one =)

a very unproductive day

i spent the whole day at home on the bed waking up sleep waking up sleep waking up sleep waking up sleep waking up sleep chat with candy sleep waking up chat with candy sleep. feeling like a total crap seriously i don’t think i’ll be able to handle so many late nights. i should be doing something meaningful today like it’s sunday c’mon like go to church (ya right)

oh i first woke up at 10am to see 1 new text message and it’s from Kevin at 7am (what makes him think i’m awake at that time) “hey where is chinatown give me address” of which i texted back “grant avenue” and went back to sleep. Linus i can’t believe you’ve lived in Cali your whole life and you don’t even know how to get to Chinatown why don’t you just pack your bags and Jes along and come back to malaysia dammit.

i also have quite a few friends who went touristy in SF and texted me to find out where this place is where that place is. i wrote so much of SF people seem to think i’ve lived there my whole life. BUT SOON BABY VERY SOON

on a different note, come to think of it, i haven’t really stopped to think about something bad that has happened very recently. I wish i could say that it doesn’t hurt and all that jazz. I was so afraid that once i slow down the feeling will come to me and i won’t be able to handle it. anytime in the day when my mind is not occupied with something else, the feeling will start to surface. and then i’ll quickly jump out of bed or call a friend or just hang out before the whole wave of feeling sink in like tsunami. for the first time i’m at loss for words i truly don’t know how to describe that feeling. and i don’t even want to dramatize it any further. isn’t it awful to feel that way every morning when you wake up?

it sucks

i don’t think i’ll be able to suppress it for long. i don’t want to just forget about them i wish there’s a pandora box that i can keep in and safe lock it and put it somewhere for a long long long time. how can i, or anyone, make things okay again for me?

p.s okay i just decided to order pizza delivery for tonight’s dinner the last thing i wanted to do is to be out and around.

p.p.s PIZZA IS FREAKING EXPENSIVE OKAY the amount of money i just spent is enough for me to eat for 2 days! okay to make up for that i decided i don’t want to eat anything for the next 3 days

first time in history i’m lucid

I AM SO PROUD OF MYSELF

i managed to go clubbing without getting drunk and waking up the next morning wondering what happened the night before *grins. first time since…high school lol so happy okay i managed to suppress my urge to even touch the glass haih so happy i finally did it. no need alcohol rehab okay

anyway i slept from 5 last night till 8 this morning. then went back to sleep again until Jane woke me up at 4 in the afternoon and told me she’s coming over in 5 minutes for make up and stuff. i took only 5 minutes to jump out of bed, brush my teeth, cleanse my face, shampoo my hair and bathe. very efficient ehem

then only i realize i don’t know what to wear. and instead of looking into my closet which is messy enough to even store a corpse without me realizing, i opened up my laptop and searched through my photos coz everytime i bought a dress or something i’ll take a photo and put inside a folder.

and i found this

i nearly forgot i have that. i don’t even remember when i bought it.

it’s in gold. see the hemline damn nice right. i love it.

i also have this photo but i don’t think i bought that dress coz it looks kind of similar though. oh and that photo was taken i think 1 year ago back in what..2006?

in the dressing room lol so long ago okay

i don’t have the photos for tonight yet. post them up later.

oh god it’s 4am again. on weekdays i sleep at 2 and weekends i sleep at 4. i’m a sleep deprived bitch because i have something in mind bothering me sigh 6 more months down the road like that i’ll look like i’m 40. i’m not sleepy but i’m going to watch movie until i fall asleep okay i’m going to try okay bye bye

Bruce Banner is so cute

the best thing after a whole day out is a nice long warm shower

was supposed to watch Made of Honour but turns out after hanging out here and there we’re only left with the 12.10 midnight Incredible Hulk so i thought i was still young and be able to handle late night movies.

i didn’t watch Incredible Hulk I. i watched “The Kingdom” and Colonel Al Ghazi was chatting with Agent Fluery in the car about the beast which turns green. then i ask my friend who was watching with me at that time and he told me about the Marvel character. that’s how i know Incredible Hulk sigh no childhood

i didn’t like it.

basically for the whole 2 hours i just sat inside and watch for the sake of watching. i didn’t know if it’s because i was already tired or because the movie is plain boring. and most of the time i was left wondering why only his shirt is totally torn but his pants can stretch until so big and it covers the whole bottom.

see? where got possible you tell me. and the worst part is when the bad guy turns into the giant he has no pants on. and we’re all wondering why his dick didn’t turn big as well. sigh…and the worst part about being Hulk is he can’t have sex because then his heart beat would go up and he’ll transform. total sad case haha whats the point of living like that i dont know

i’ve always liked Liv Tyler coz i think she’s chio in all her previous movies. but for this particular one, her face is still pretty but she gained a lot of pounds there and became the typical caucasian size.

i still think she’s gorgeous nonetheless even with all the weight. But i like Gwyneth more because her name is nicer, Pepper Potts, how to fight when this one is called BETTY

and Edward Norton. haiya do i even need to say more? i’ve liked him ever since i saw his movie Fight Club back in 1999. i watched it in Japan when i was doing my student exchange thing and basically the whole FIght Club movie is in Japanese and i can’t understand a thing they said, left the cinema clueless but i think he’s cute okay sometimes i liked him more than Pitt

but Tony Stark, hmph very good looking. And seriously i wasn’t even impressed when Hulk was fighting with Abomination. truth be told i was SO BORED LA OKAY INSIDE WHEN THEY’RE FIGHTING and throwing each other around it wasn’t even that great! I was only excited when Tony Stark comes out and talk to General Ross hohoho

so as you can tell, i liked Ironman like 100000000 times more than Hulk. But i think the comic has a part where spiderman fights with Hulk. i wish they’d come out with a movie where spiderman superman batman ironman heman aiya whatever man comes out, thundercat power rangers doraemon smurf (don’t know where did those come from) all come out and fight together to see who’s the last man standing

that’ll be really interesting trust me

oh god it’s 4am already i’m totally drained out from the day okay bye bye i need to watch movies now to force myself to fall asleep