it’s already our best

everybody wants to win.

so do i. i go all out for it, by any means. i don’t even know how to differentiate good or bad, i just wanted to win. everything else doesn’t matter. that was me. years ago. and i didn’t know since when, i had begun to lose that fire. that oomph. winning is good. the taste of victory is always good, of course, but i start to care more about the whole process, and a little less about winning. a change for the better or worse, who could judge?

every single individual in the team did a remarkable job. bravo clap clap. but as a team, we did not win. i’m not disappointed. i really am not. everybody seems to think i care, but the truth is, i.don’t.care. i didn’t care from the beginning. my ultimate goal is to do whatever i could do in my power not to let people around me down.

it’s unavoidable that people would come to me and make a lot of unnecessary bitter comments. and you would be surprised how many people are actually glad that you did not win. how ironic. not that it matters to them in any way. it’s these people that makes winning oh-so-sweet. do they think i care that i won mine out of luck? i never deny that could be the truth. but is it really necessary to come and talk so much nonsense to me? i couldn’t care less even if i were to do it again and i lose.

say whatever u want. because ultimately, i won once. that’s what fucking matters.

okay relax la bradderrrrrrrr lol.. on a totally different note

pricey? yes but so worth my money =) okay that’s all xoxo you know you love me..wtf.

in the game of love, who has the right to say who’s wrong?

A couple flew out of the country for a vacation. An all expenses paid trip offered by the Boyfriend, with abundant promises of love and care.

One night, a petty argument turned into a full blown nasty fight. Ending with the Boyfriend asking the Girlfriend to pack her bags and leave the room and that she can “go wherever she wants” and “do whatever she likes”. The Boyfriend, out of rage, complained about having to spend the amount of money on an “unappreciative useless piece of crap”. Armed with little cash and no contacts in the foreign land in the middle of the night, the Girlfriend had to ask the hotel concierge to book her a hostel room which costs less than a beggar’s day of meal.

The next day, the Girlfriend had no choice but to call the Boyfriend with a “is there anything we can do”. They ended up flying back to the country with the Boyfriend apologizing later and the Girlfriend forgiving and now they’re back together.

No. That did not happen to me. But i have my fair share of experience with man with ego as huge as Mt Everest. I put, men who ask their woman to leave, and men who walked away themselves leaving their woman in the middle of nowhere, at the same level. I admit i am no saint. I do get pissed off with things, then to throw tantrums like a biatch. But getting slapped is no fun, whether it is an unintentional act of anger or merely as a joke. My road is paved with so many sorry-s that it doesn’t even sound like a word anymore. Normal responses from outsiders are “if i were u i would have packed my bags and leave” “he’s not worth it. leave” “why are you staying with guys like that. nobody would hit their gf” “he’s an asshole. u should know better” “if he can slap u now i cannot imagine what he’d do to you later” “leave” “break up”

Have you tried forgiving someone who had done the unthinkable after many displays of regrets or sorries, only to find out he is capable of doing something even more loathsome. And then he came back begging for forgiveness. Are you still able to forgive this person? I reckon in every relationship there’s a chance where both parties could take a deep breath, sit down and figure things out. Eliminating all foul languages, shoutings, harsh piercing words and storming away. Because we need to know that things can definitely be forgiven, but are never forgotten. You would hope angry words used during the arguments could be erased once you made up, but that is never the case no matter how much you regretted blurting them out and would give anything to take them back. In any situation though, there’s no excuse for lifting your finger to your woman, ever. If that’s allowed, what’s next?

what’s next would be pack the bags and leave.

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could you tell?

it’s what..8pm and i’m still in office. kind of spooky. our infamous ghost stories of the building even my boss agreed there’s ghost sigh

read this

LMAO!

AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

how could you NOT know the one lying next to you and caressing you is NOT your husband? this is so funny. i would know instantly if the guy next to me is not my guy okay it’s the SMELL LOL of course you could recognize your own guy’s smell lol and i reckon the robber won’t really smell that good huh agree

oh god this is so sad yet so funny

and who say girls are not stupid?

i NEVER say size does not matter

Her: haih

Her: dun understand

Me: gals not sometimes. gals are ALWAYS stupid

Her: THAT GUY NOT TO SAY PRINCE EDWARD

Her: haih

Me: lol

Me: who is prince edward?

Her: HAHAHA that prince charles son..name what ah?

Her: isit edward?

Her: hahaha dunno.

Me: prince WILLIAM LA WAH LAO

HAHAHAHA LMAO -_-”

anyway my point is

girls can be really stupid at times. but when it comes to situation like this, oh god, didn’t you know what’s better for you?

resting

*edit: it’s 2.42pm. i survived the morning with a cereal bar. but now i’m freaking hungry i feel like going out and shove 5 KFC meals down my throat WTF and still noone is online to talk to me T_____T and i’m also thinking of cancelling the saloon visit and cut my own hair myself instead after 1 peek into my purse wtf

#1 sent brother patrick to the airport. uber tired but totally worth it. sigh now i’m all alone lonely and bored and available sigh any takers wtf all i want to do is stay home and chat but nobody is online fuck this shit can someone msg me pls sigh

#2 after i installed bitcomet and running fine all happy for 1 day now it’s gone down. suddenly it stopped working and i coldn’t even access google. why oh why. no matter what i do the PC just won’t work anymore

#3 i’m a happy girl because i get my green and white bedsheet and comforter set back. it was sitting in the laundry basket since february! *embarassed wtf and my friend is so kind to grab it from me and washed it on behalf and also folded it nicely back for me. *more embarassed wtf. it smelled all dynamo before this but now after 1 day it’s all cherry blossom. so me *hearts

#4 tomorrow i’m going to get the much needed hair cut. i’m going to cut it short since nobody believe me when i say i want to do it. i’m going to leave it to my “barber” wtf whatever he wants to do. go ahead. be my guest. i promise i won’t scream at you.

#5 since my bitcomet is down, my friend is kind enough to help me download gossip girl, ANTM, Desperate Housewives, Grey’s Anatomy, Cashmere Mafia (the new shit now), and also Once. i’m going to stay in bed and watch it all tomorrow since nobody is there to chat with me anyway *SULK MAXIMUM

#6 okay headache is gone. i think. tomorrow like i said i’m going to stay in bed skip breakfast lunch dinner and shed those pounds off until my head is too big for my body wtf. unless, of course, someone is kind enough to bring me some edible food *cough cupcake *cough

#7 i need sponsorship for US trip. anyone need simple piano or english lessons huh kevin huh i think you need it. i’m going to charge you cheap i promise wtf.

#8 USD exchange rate is 3.15 last week but when i go to the money changer today it’s 3.23!!!!!!!!! X-( whole stack of Ringgit became just a couple of pathetic green notes sigh that’s why you can never earn enough in Msia wtf it’s only S$2K for my sister but it’s RM5k for me WHAT IS THAT! NOBODY WOULD WANT TO STAY IN MSIA LIKE THAT!

XOXO Gossip Girl

I blogged at 2am yesterday slept for 3 hours now i’m blogging again fuyoh so free but nobody is online to talk to me dammit

after the writers guild strike is over, all the series are back online. YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS? hohohoho it means Gossip Girl is back in action!!!!!!!

sigh but all i get is watching them off my 15 inch laptop sigh why is my life so sad.

i saw a lot of voting polls online on who’s the prettiest of them all. my opinion…lets see

Serena Van Der Woodsen. The “main” actress in the group. I personally don’t think she’s really that pretty though face structure and all. When I first saw her I thought she looked okay but as time goes I got bored of her.

Jenny Humprey. The new and ordinary girl in school. I disliked her because she kept trying to kiss Blair’s ass. And she somewhat became a total bitch at some point where she ganged up with the rest of the people against Blair and Serena. Hmph..

Presenting you…Blair Waldorf my favourite of them all. I loved her because I think she is very sophisticated and rich and although she’s like the super bitch in GG but i think she’s so damn cute okay kissable lips and all lol wtf

gorgeous. i like her dress!

wtf why am i so unfair that I’m putting up so many of Blair’s photos. Sorry can’t help it. I love the shoes.

For the guys

A lot of people voted for Dan Humprey. Probably because he’s the good boy and he’s sort of cute. SORT OF. Sometimes he looks okay but at times he look like he just walked out of the bedroom ungroomed.

ALL the votes go for Nate Archibald. You think he’s awfully good looking? Looked smart but not brain smart though (the way he presented himself in the episodes)

Everyone’s dream boyfriend wtf but i didn’t vote for him.

Because this one below is the best of the best (I think)

Edgier fashionista Evil Spawn in GG Chuck Bass.

LOL i suddenly thought of evil spawn when i see him because he is the jerk like seriously when the principal ask him why he should be the usher for Yale he answered because he’s Chuck Bass wtf like that also can DanHumprey has to go through the whole speech about integrity responsibility etcetc seriously i don’t know why i always fall for lousy guys like that.

i think Dan and Serena looks good together huh? Like the all American sweet couple.

but i still think Blair and Chuck looks better..*bias wtf

you don’t think so?

STILL don’t think so?

ha take that. those who still don’t agree with me will answer to my fist wtf.

joan ah kor hmph

i hate being sick esp with headaches just kill me pls i was on MC on wed then thurs went to work half dead. went back home and slept from 8 at night till 8 in the morning. 12 hours straight without waking up not even my housemate’s morning toilet visits could wake me up

when people are sick they lose appetite and lose weight. when i’m sick i ate like a bull and gained back whatever pounds i lost seriously fuck this shit when i recover i’m going back on strict diet sigh never ending weight battle wtf

i hate dieting. can i stay chubby like now. would u still love me if i’m fat wtf sigh i guess not

i went to work this morning at 8 and left at 11 to pick up Patrick then spent the whole day in G Hotel with Ethan. the last time mum asked Ethan who doesn’t love Ethan he say Joan ah kor sigh now everytime i see him i force him to say Ethan loves Joan ah kor lol even if he’s not sincere i don care wtf

he could speak fairly well now and his favourite phrases are “what are you doing” and “where are we going” wtf

he’s still super active like hyperactive and kept pushing the lights to and fro so happy okay nah Candy this is for you just in case u forgot him already

then Pat scolded him and he sat behind the table. not smiling not talking look very pitiful

lol so cute can die seriously
actually i’m beyond tired now because i got home at midnight after a long day but i’m going to blog anyhow because i’m slightly free now and starting Monday i’ll be back to being busy so i want to blog as much as i can these few days wtf

but unfortunately i have nothing more to blog about now so bye bye good night wtf

random updates

vww said,May 8, 2008 @ 7:22 am

please complete your AR. I will give u one more chance.

WHAT IS THIS SIGH T.T i promised to blog before end of yesterday but forgot lol wtf nothing much lately spent a lot of dinners with Sim sigh Sim ah Sim i’ll miss you wtf

i know i talked about this a lot of times already but i’m still going to say it anyhow.

porny: go watch ironman la nice wan everyone say it’s nice

me: don’t want. i don’t like to watch what superman spiderman xmen batman

kevin: what about handsome man

-_-” seriously why is my friend like that

no the thing is. after much persuasion i decided to spend 6 bucks to see how good ironman is since wed is movie day. we reach Qbay at 7.05pm and porny say eat first freaking hungry then watch 7.25pm. we got to the cinema and i think we cannot make it since it’s 7.15pm already. then he say fine. let’s watch 9pm. so we went down to oldtown for dinner. then to Borders and buy book. we went back up to the cinema at 9pm sharp and the tickets are sold out. don’t ask me why we didn’t buy it earlier sigh. then we walk back down to ground floor. then he ask me why not watch 9.25pm? there’s 9.25pm. i said fine since we already waited that long already. we walked back up to the top floor. then he told me sorry he saw wrongly it’s 9.55pm. we think it’s too late so we walked back down and went to starbucks and hang out until 11.

and then he kept complaining the caramel machiatto sucks. i would have killed him yesterday if not for Blink

sigh. we go to qbay for 4 hours plus but didn’t get to watch ironman wtf all we did is discussing about vagina health and fake orgasms wtf

our new past time activity. in between lunch and after work and sometimes midnight

i partnered kevin and porny with WeeSoon. we lost 2 breakfasts and decided to revenge. WeeSoon is so confident he’s going to get more breakfasts so he say fine. *sombong wtf

ends up we not only even out the 2 breakfasts but also, won another 2 breakfasts. because WeeSoon accidentally hit the black ball twice and then his last game had the white and black ball both go in together. so he actually foul for 3 times wtf AHAHAHAHA tak guna!

PORNY WEESOON WHERE IS MY BREAKFAST WTF

and

traveling is tiring. can you see my tulan face. seriously i was so sleepy and the toilet stinks like shit

i forgot how long i didn’t go shopping already seriously i’m beyond broke it’s not even funny T________T no i’m serious. i didn’t buy anything cause i didn’t even bring my purse why do i need to bring if there’s no money to put inside wtf

before this at least i have astro. now that i’m financially tight i cancelled astro. so my life just turns from boring to SUPER ULTRA FREAKING BORING RTM1 and TV3 also don’t have

sigh

i feel like registering for paypal and put in my blog so you guys can donate to me seriously

i decided to put my PC back in action to download Cashmere Mafia. i just downloaded bitcomet and it works fine so my eMule can go eat shit now since it’s always down without reason. or maybe because i don’t know how to use it because KokWei seems to be just fine with it

OH

and Ethan is in town. since he said he loves me so i’m going to take half day off work tomorrow to spend time in G Hotel <3

vacation

WTF why do i still log in to my blog even on vacation WTF and the connection here damn slow until don know what sigh

i found out my eldest sis is taking a 2 weeks trip to Seattle in June to find my 2nd sister and making a pit stop in San Fran first for 10 days before going to Seattle for 5 days

i just checked SQ and it’s RM5k HOHOHOHOHO so now i’ll go all touristy in San Fran and bring che around since i’m SF expert wtf then go see candy hohohohoho wtf best nyer not see candy la more like i want to go and eat the fluffy pancake and limitless berries toppings blueberry strawberry berry this berry that wtf

can’t wait