okay bye bye don’t miss me

huarghhhhhh finally finished packing seriously like i only took 2 tops and 1 shorts and 1 skirt but i spent the whole hour. i don’t know where my time went wtf and my room is MESSY BEYOND WORDS all my books my magazines my this my that all on the bed. and the floor sigh..messy until don know what

sigh tonight very emo don know why. when my friend is unhappy i ll be unhappy. ROARRRRRR WHY LIKE THAT sim don’t la angry the sushi king guy damn kam lan i know wtf

by the way, i have a dislocated shoulder. T________________________T i have a slight pain on my right shoulder for a whole 2 weeks before i go to the doctor. and doc say the biggest possibility for the slight dislocation is because i sleep on my right side too often that’s why too much pressure because i sleep sideways T_______________T he ask me to try sleep on the back, he say left shoulder also ok la anything as long as not right shoulder . and i TRIED seriously wtf i TRIED but whole night i couldn’t sleep until 3 am like that i turn to the side on my right shoulder and i fell asleep instantly T________________T why am i like that!

hurhurhur how to fix sleeping pattern. i cannot help it. it’s habit sigh

CAN YOU TELL I’M VERY BERRY BORED? HOHOHOHO WTF when you’re bored you take sohai photos hohohoh wtf

ok give you one sane photo to compensate

OKAY BYE BYE PLEASE DO REMEMBER TO MISS MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

is losing appendix = losing weight a myth

i’m listening to a very good song like very orgasmic good wtf like seriously good wtf like very berry good wtf like couldn’t stop playing kind of good wtf

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this is one very outdated post. but i didn’t have time until now

jes was hospitalized i don’t know whats the operation called but according to porny it’s called appendicitis extraction. ahahaha wtf i doubt that’s right la he’s never right about anything

jes, still looking great before the surgery

she’s all fine and dandy now. according to her it’s so advanced that it’s not even called a surgery anymore and the doctor say it’s “minor procedure“. but my girl here didn’t even give herself enough bed rest and went to bangkok and shop instead sigh why are you like that shopaholic T_______________T

as you can see the whole bunch went to visit her in the hospital seriously damn noisy until the nurses stared at us like so impatient want us to leave wtf

the last time i was hospitalized and they came, i was so sick i couldn’t even open my mouth and speak to them. they all stood there looking at me, at times they poked me to make sure i’m still alive, laughed and make fun of me like i’m some kind of animal in the cage why are my friends like that!!!!!!!!!!! they had fun because for someone like me who talked non stop normally couldn’t talk one day. hmph at that very moment i swear to god once i’m discharged they’re all dead meat i tell you wtf

hohoho anyway i heard if you take out appendix you will become thinner and it’s tougher to gain weight. how true is that? anyone knows? if yes then hell i need to register myself for that “minor procedure” wtf

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recently there’s a lot of huu haa over high tech gadgets like handphone. apparently. everyone decided to move 1 step ahead and either buy N95 or IPhone.

and since then, all hell break loose. these people revolves around their phone. ha? porny? ha? kokwei? sombong ha?

hohohoho wtf and i have photos to PROVE their kesombongan pls

see? i told you. suddenly their phone kept ringing and they kept having to take their handphones out all the time wtf and their phone cover suddenly got 1 hole behind there showing his apple logo wtf

and then he suddenly love taking photos of me. so i have to take out my poor pathetic phone out and capture him back wtf

us in the car while i was DRIVING dangerous driving wtf

and yes AGAIN i know i got tired of it too

i got sick of his photo taking and ask him to leave him alone so i could eat WTF

oh and he installed both of the games i used to play. the dominoes and the other balancing thing i don’t even know what it’s called. i used to win all dominoes when i play last time coz my opponent lousy wtf but now i lost everytime and i still couldn’t get the balancing thing to the next level. hmph..not qualified to be apple user wtf

see. comparing their phones wtf and showing this feature that feature

and you can obviously see this photo taken using my lousy phone because theirs is 5MEGAPIXEL like a freaking camera already! what is this!!! FatBotSlim please keep your phone la pls hohohohoho

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i’ve been meaning to write this for some time now. but hmph i was so caught up with things previous weeks i really couldnt sit down and recap it. so here goes.

you should be super extremely touched that i threw everything aside and drove 30 minutes without shower without changing clothes without this without that, braving the heavy traffic, risking getting fined for parking in illegal areas, walking small quick paces to rush there to see you! hmmphhh….wtf say thank you wtf

seriously, if it’s for anyone else i would have said no sorry very busy couldnt make time. anyhow i reckon it’s worth it. because i haven’t seen you in ages. in like what…8 years? 8 years is not a short time okay someone could have 7 kids in 8 years WTF

it’s amazing that there’s no slightest bit of awkwardness between us even after that long. and you haven’t change a bit. you looked exactly the same like how i remembered you to be. tall. smart. except that you’re more built up now. lots of gym eh? i, on the opposite, looked different i guess, fatter, worry lines here and there, eye bags thanks to the many late nights lol wtf why like that?

but you changed a lot on the inside. what has the other metropolitan city done to you!!!!! i couldn’t say i was too surprised to hear everything that happened to you and everything that you did. we’re after all, 21st century kids, like it’s perfectly normal? i guess i lived here far too long and lost touch with everything happening at the outside world wtf i’m sorry to hear what situation you’re in right now. i thought i was unlucky but you’re 1000000 times worse. there’s totally no competition there. i’m not going to say whether what you did is right or wrong, because like i said “life is short. and most of the time it sucks. so if you think you’re going to be happy doing that, go ahead and stop at nothing”. and you know no matter how i would disapprove of that, but i would still back you up if anything happens. you know that right!!!

after our short brief meet up, on the drive back home, waves and waves of memories flooded back like tsunami wtf i’m surprised. i told you i don’t quite remember everything back then and everyone back home, but after we met, everything seems to come back to me again.

where and when i first met you. what i first thought of you. how we first got in touch. the snail mails!! even when we just live less than 10 minutes away? but i love it back then i love receiving the mails it made my day. me having yoghurt all that mornings and us standing outside the class and talked non stop. when you get your first kancil and you drove me. is it white? i remember it’s white. and i even remember you saying this “i think you just don’t like to be tied down. you couldn’t even wear a tie nicely and you didn’t even want to wear a seat belt. which proves my theory”. LOL i guess you’re right after all.

i’m sorry i didn’t bring the cake which was requested, nor did you bring the rose which you’re supposed to LOL WTF hmph but anyhow, i guess none of that matters, because what matters is, you’re there =)

it’s gonna be a GREAT week ahead!

happyjoyhappyjoyhappyjoyhappyjoyhappyjoyhappyjoy

p.s: i know my previous posts have been meaningless and senseless. but i’m now revived and i have so much to say wtf hohohohoohohohohohoho

5am wake up calls have taken its toll on me i’m officially a walking zombie so i’m going to skip lunch and stay in bed with curtains down and just lay there watching lots and lots and lots of sex and the city hohohoho

hmph on second thought. i AM HUNGRY. i wish there’s someone who can help me make lunch so i can jsut stay in bed and eat in bed boohoo

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i’m soo nervous im too old too smart to be feeling nervous eh?

anyway will reply comments later

no new photo. camera died on me. photos in SD couldn’t wire out. photos with friends didn’t take fr them. phone bluetooth crazy already. so give u old photo i took from kevin camera hohoho

don ask me why i write stupid letters in the photo. if it’s 4am and u’re not sleeping yet u’d probably do the same thing

byebye

it’s flyday!

i love the gift <3

it comes in baby pink love crystal shape which is reaaaaaally nice la. i bring it everywhere i go lol

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and another mug from seattle’s world first ever starbucks

‘careful, the man you’re about to enjoy is extremely hot‘ AHAHA WTF

now i have one, two , three, four. this is the 5th to add to my collection. not that i use them also wtf

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on another note,

do u know how lucky one person is to have girl friends around them like when u’re on the verge of dying they just came to you and held u right up. and no matter how low i fall, they’re always there to catch me. and no matter how they’re so tired of oldtown but i know they’ll still go with me. and no matter how gross my puke is, they stood beside me all the time holding my long hair back so my puke didn’t dirty it..like..u know what i mean..

<3

seriously

sometimes i don’t know how to thank you girls. despite me always ffk-ing you all for so many things wtf but you’re always always always there for me. even though it means having to find the most deserted restaurant in the entire mall and ordering a lot of food so i would eat and ended up stuffing yourself full because i didn’t even touch a bit, and then paying a hell lot because the thai food is really pricey???

i love you all. *blink back tears. jes i don’t know what to do if you’re no longer here. then pey has to bear every crap from me wtf

on the other hand, how would u feel if u told your supposingly closest friend that you’re in distress, and telling your friend upfront you needed the company. but your friend pretended not to hear you and left?..not that it happens to me..i was saying ‘what if’

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tomorrow i have to be a volunteer for Disney On Ice to chaperon the little kids around. bring them to pee/shit in the toilet and make sure they have all their wishes entertained during the entire show. let’s hope i don’t lose them instead. and hope the kid i have to take care is really cute okay if not i’ll lose all my interest wtf. for every hour i volunteer the school will get cash donation so i hope i last long wtf

or

i ffk them and go hiking with ChakFung which is more tempting because it comes with dimsum after that wtf

then it’s gathering time at night because Sim want to challenge me wtf

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I THINK….

i lost weight??

i HATE to lose weight this way

all i have to do now is concentrate on doing what i should be doing, then US here i come wtf

it is surprisingly painful. it gets better.

it WILL get better it WILL *chants to self

1 more thing to add to my long list of crappiness

fuh i’m so emo now but i’m not gonna talk about it wtf

as though i’m not crappy enough that i have to be trapped in the elevator wtf and i thought my company has the best of everything wtf

seriously this is the 1st ever time i got trapped like why am i so unluckyyyyyyyyyyyyyy T_________T

this is the technician trying to push open the door but to no avail

and my friends are all enjoying me getting trapped that they all stood outside and asked if i need to write a will wtf and i already agreed to give my aircon and car away because that’s all the asset i have WTF

and i was trapped for a total of 40 minutes or so. luckily the ventilation is still working and i have enough oxygen

trust Jes to be the only one who stood outside all the time making sure that i’m alright and kept talking to me to make sure i’m still alive T______________________T <3

god are u done playing with me?

What’s better? A lie that draws a smile or the truth that draws a tear?

break up sucks. break up always sucks.

there isn’t really anything anyone can say. because unless you’re in the shoe you wouldn’t be able to understand the amount of pain it gets to you. the soreness. the random pain which comes when u least expect it. so great, that it blocks out everything else and makes the rest of the thing go away.

it hurts. u feel like u can’t breathe. u feel like the whole world is tumbling down. the things that used to matter, they don’t anymore. it hurts.

relationships, are like glass. sometimes it’s best to leave them broken, because you’ll just hurt yourself trying to piece them back together. isn’t it crap? u know it just won’t work out but you go for it anyhow. u put in 101% trying to keep whatever that’s there. but what won’t work just won’t work. don’t be sad that it’s over, just be glad that you once had it.

i guess the only way is to keep breathing. breathe hard. and wish the pain will subside. wish you wake up the next day and everything’s alright again. we just have to wait. be patient and wait. it’s okay to fall. falling does not always suck, because then you’ll know, i’ll always be there to catch you.